blackwhitevidy

Terkadang gua menemukan hal baru yang membuat gua kaget berat, y'know just like it's scared you to death (sama aja boss)
Menemukan kehebatan teman-teman atau orang sekitar gue. Atau hal-hal yang baru gue ketahui, hal yang tidak disangka, dan bisa diragukan kebenarannya. Ditambah dengan kelemahan gua mengingat sesuatu yang cukup penting, yang terkadang harus diingatkan berkali-kali. Sorry for this.

Untuk hal yang pertama, tentang kehebatan orang-orang terdekat atau teman-teman. Gua nggak nyangka aja punya orang sehebat mereka di sekitar gua. Baik hebatnya skill mereka atau strength mereka yang terkadang membuat gua terkaget-kaget sampe loncat-lonacatan kaya kodok. Dan saat itu juga gua berpikir, "Dia Hebat".

Dan untuk hal-hal yang baru gua ketahui tentang mereka, tentang fakta yang selama ini mereka hadapi atau mereka punya tanpa gua ketahui sebelumnya, mereka menyembunyikannya dengan sangat baik. Pretend like they're never get that. You're Great.

Walaupun ada beberapa hal yang msih dipertanyakan kebenarannya. Untuk satu hal yang baru banget gua tahu, baru aja. Gua harap itu bukan dia yang dia ceritakan. Kalau pun itu benar, Dia Hebat.

Mereka Hebat, Gua Juga!

Kalau nggak mau bilang aja, nggak usah ngehindar atau berdalih dengan seribu satu alasan yang kadang-kadang terlihat dibuat-buatnya. Toh gua nggak akan maksa atau melakukan hal yang buruk ke loe. Kalau loe pada kaya gini, malah bikin kesel, tau!
Kalau ngomomngin alesan loe melulu, yaa orang malah tambah maksa. Langsung bilang aja sih, "NGGAK MAU". Beres.

kesel deh gua jadinya --."

Sensasinya dengerin lagu pagi-pagi pakai earphone di pinggir jalan raya sendirian sambil menunggu teman untuk kerja kelompok. Tepatnya melakukan ketiganya sekaligus di tempat pemberhentian *)bus/bis. Kalau lagi sepi, serasa orang di seberang jalan bisa mendengar apa yang terdengar melalui earphone tercinta, efeknya adalah memperkecil volume seketika. Kemudian beberapa saat akan ada segerombolan mesin yang lewat dan membuat lagunya tidak terdengar, efeknya adalah memperbesar volume. Jadi, kalau sedang mendengarkan lagu dengan keadaan seperti itu, jarinya menari memainkan tombol volume, bukan melakukan sesuatu yang lebih penting.

Sensasinya ngeliat awan mendung. Everybody's just in hurry. It's just funny. Mengendarai kendaraan mereka dengan hati-hati atau pun tidak. Memenuhi rasa keengganan untuk berbasah ria bila terlambat untuk mangkat ke tempat tujuan atau untuk terjebak di suatu tempat dan harus menunggu lama untuk melanjutkan perjalanan. Mereka pun memacu kendaraan mereka, termasuk para pejalan kaki, mungkin termasuk diri gue sendiri secara sadar atau pun tidak. Ambil positifnya aja, biasanya jalanan nggak macet.

Sensasinya baca novel. Serasa masuk ke dunia "mereka" yang sebenarnya adalah dunia nyata atau pun khayal sang pengarang yang memaksa gue merasakan perasaan sang pengarang. Masuk ke pikiran pengarang dan membuat gue berkhayal tentang apa pun dalam novel itu. Sometimes I think about, what if that's me, the character in the novel. Maybe I'd feel that awesome-great-magnificent-hurt-sad-happy-fun-lost-or I just felt nothing. And I could do anything that I can't do in this real reality. Go to another world, escape the fate, run away, time leaping, adventure, run as fast as I could, scream as loud as I could, fly as high as I would, read another mind, hide in the shadows, dive while breathing, jump over the roofs, be a shape-shifter, ninja, magician, knight, warrior, vampire, ghost, or just a normal person. And all of my thought about, that's what makes me the one of the normal person in the world and and it makes me be a big part of my own novel.

Sensasinya nonton film di bioskop. Memacu adrenalin, akibatnya debar jantung meningkat.. deg-degaaan. Rasanya gue juga ikut main di film itu haha..

Sensasinya nonton film di bioskop, jalan-jalan, belanja atau makan sendirian. Seperti anak ayam kehilangan induk, bingung. Gua bisa dibilang nggak jarang  melakukan hal-hal tersebut, kadang-kadang tanpa tujuan malah. Jobless memang, padahal sebentar lagi gua kuliah, amiiiin o:)
My next destination : BIOLGY IPB!

See yaa in the next sensation..

NB : *) coret yang tidak perlu

Tengah malam begini harusnya gua udah tidur. Tapi nggak bisa, padahal ngantuk. Buka web nggak  ada tujuan, buka ini, buka itu, nggak jelas. And finally, I've decided to do something.. blog-walking and blogging and posting *yaaay! very something haha? padahal besok nanti gua sekolah (berhubung jarum panjang dan pendek di dinding, di tangan, di atas meja, bahkan di ponsel sudah menunjukkan pukul dua belas lewat)

My head was oversized

I'll take the high road like I should

You said it's meant to be

That it's not you, it's me

You're leaving now for my own good

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

She went down in an airplane

Fried getting suntanned

Fell in a cement mixer full of quicksand

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!

She met a shark under water

Fell and no one caught her

I returned everything I ever bought her

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died

My pride still feels the sting

You were my everything

Some day I'll find a love like yours (a love like yours)

She'll think I'm Superman

Not super minivan

How could you leave on Yom Kippur?

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

She was caught in a mudslide

Eaten by a lion

Got run over by a crappy purple Scion

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!

She dried up in the desert

Drowned in a hot tub

Danced to death at an east side night club

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died

I wanna live a thousand lives with you

I wanna be the one you're dying to

Love...but you don't want to

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are I'm gonna say

She went down in an airplane

Fried getting suntanned

Fell in a cement mixer full of quicksand

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!

She met a shark under water

Fell and no one caught her

I returned everything I ever bought her

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

She was caught in a mudslide

Eaten by a lion

Got run over by a crappy purple Scion

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbyes!

She dried up in the desert

Drowned in a hot tub

Danced to death at an east side night club

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died

source

You told me how proud you were but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss

You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that

I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

source

Hell..oo again, readers! (walau gua yakin mungkin gaada yang baca) :p

Dari kemaren, pengen banget nge-post. Tapi setelah mengetik dan masuk ke alamat blogger and after klicking the pencil sign (create new post), kemudian muncul kolom kosong yang seharusnya gua isi.. I almost always said "it's all gone" *dooong semuanya meluap, menghilang, gone, dissappear, dan sejenisnya --."
dan akhirnya gua menutup kembali tab yang udah gua buka itu tanpa meninggalkan sepatah kata pun *haah
why human can forget about something, even it's an important thing..

hal : besok ulangan biologi bab 2

kewajiban : merangkum

fakta : rangkuman belum selesai

penyebab : bingung

ngga nyambung --."

okay, tomorrow we will take the exam and we have to make a summary. that's actually not an obligation. but if you want to save your score, you have to.
and i have to. but

gua bingung deh gimana ngerangkumnya --." bab yg gua rangkum adalah bab metabolisme, bab yang diakui paling ribet, bahkan sama gurunya sendiri.dalam buku paket, penjelasan anabolismenya nggak jelas, jadi harus nyari sendiri. dan gua menemukan di sebuah web :
fotosintesis melalui dua tahap, reaksi terang (reaksi hill) dan reaksi gelap (siklus calvin).
nah, di web lain ketemu juga :
siklus calvin melalui dua tahap, reaksi terang dan reaksi gelap.
blaaaaaarrrr ....
dan seketika gua menghentikan penulisan rangkuman, membuka blogger dan mengepost --."

biologi oh biologi ...
masa depanku... amiiiiin :D
SEMANGAT! *ngelanjutin rangkuman

nggak tenang boss perasaan

let me out of here \(-^-)/

vidya

do you ever feel that you might like someone but you're not sure about that? and suddenly, your friend tell you that she likes that someone. you'll think again and be jeallous. but you don't even know that you like that someone or not. thant's nut --."